My World Stopped

 

I had just returned from an extended trip due to a family emergency out of state.  Due to all the traveling, my suitcase remained untouched, groceries were not a second thought, my only focus was getting back to work and reestablishing my weekly routine of dinner with the parentals every other day.

August 1, 2022 the morning started off as usual.  Got the morning call from mom, she was trying to fax a form and wanted to know if my printer was also a fax machine.. which was a "no".  I had responded with the possibility of scanning the form in on hers and emailing the document to whomever needed it, and went about my day.  I figured if mom had an issue doing that, she would let me know and I would get it done for her the following day as it was our usual dinner schedule.  

2 Steps back = 1 Step forward

 

Life has a way of reminding us of the importance of those around you.  Whether that be in terms of co-workers, friends, family, acquaintances, etc.  Although in most cases, albeit completely unintentional, the potential for not recognizing their importance or the reality of them being present in our lives takes a backseat to the chaos we live on a daily basis. Most of us are just trying to survive in this mostly unforgiving world, or moment in time we call "Life".

For most, including myself, it is the death of a very prominent person in your life that sets your course in life in a new direction.  Sometimes you don't even realize that you are moving on from such a heartbreaking loss until you find yourself facing their 1st birthday without them or the anniversary of their death, or even just what became a routine morning call through the years.  Any little moment that seemed second nature has now become a highly missed and now cherished memory.

So when you find yourself thinking back in time and find that smallest moment in which you are able to smile thinking of how happy you were at that exact moment in time, know that for every time you feel like you haven't progressed in your grief and sorrow, to be able to allow yourself to relive a great memory is taking that next step in healing, in moving forward in your life.

Give yourself a break, you are doing just fine.